MotherBlessing

I dont really know how or why but I was nearly lost the whole 2013 here on deviantart...Shame on me!
I promise I'll be better this year!

I wish you a great year!

After beeing sick for a longer time,I decided to write a bit,more for me then for you fellas(I bet that just a few people read my journals,if anybody does),but to concentrate my mind~

This year started rather rugged for me,so Monday is the first day for me to go to work this year.I hope it´ll be a good start.

Looking back to 2012 I sadly have to realise,that I´ve lost a few persons,but also met some new people.
But its a bit hard to just concentrate on the good things,I mean there were friends and lovers I lost...
I also realised,that
"I get in touch with you again when things are better here..."
is a mean and poor-spirited way for some to say goodbye for ever because you wont hear a word from them ever again.And I personally keep a promise...
Looking back on some situations some people are pretty egoistic in their behavior.For example I realised that when people tell you about :
"I lost so many friends in my hard times!"
This is a code for:
"I treated others like shit,I didnt care and then this fuckers left me!Can you believe that?!"
Actually yes.
Well,however,im not longer part of such lifes and im kinda glad for it at some times,because I dont want "friends" who destroys me and dont give a fuck about it.
And to be a fair player(I dont know to say it otherwise),I wish them also the best,as a last goodbye I guess.

In the end,the friends I have left are always the same.And im thankful for them to be at my side,supporting me and helping me to stay stong.

Beside this,I want to succeed at a lot of things,making a few big and old dreams finaly come true and Im trying to stay optimistic!
To be honest there already is a goal for 2014 on that I´ll work down from March : )
Wish me luck for everything!
I also want to have more time for my beloved friends,more time for my ´creative work´ and want to improve myself as much as possible!
To travel more is also something I want to do and it seems that 2013 will be my traveler year,there are so many things planned and I hope it´ll all work fine!
Oh and a bit more ink is planned,I love ink,especially when its in my skin!

But well,well,in the end we´re all mad here!

Oh,Im so exited,I hope I can reach some of my goals and that all hard work will be worth it!

Thanks for taking some time to read my thoughts and...Jeah : )
Have a wonderful new year!
And may your dreams come true!

Here it already is freaking cold and I feel for nearly everything...But Christmas!
Whatever...
Even if I have to manage 9night shifts in the beginning of december and working over christmas when my family want me there,I thought about a new "month challenge" up to the 24th of December.I mean I should be able to manage 24days,or?
(ok,I get it,practical just 24days working and then call it "month challenge" is cheating!)
However,im not sure so far,it also will depend on how I feel then.I´ll see~

(To be honest I just feel for a new Journal : <
So I steal some time of your life with senseless things!)

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In the end new old featurings of my lovers/favs!
(This Time Smaller)








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GO AND TAKE A LOOK AT THEM!

Have a nice day

I decided,that it just makes no freaking sense to drown in melancholie and so Im going to do something.Featuring.

I know I dont have many watchers,I know im not really popular and stuff but please take a few minutes of your time to take a look at these artists cause they´re so awesome and deserve way much more attention.

Sanate






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Thank you for having a look at all those wonderful persons!



Random Last Words:
A big ´thank you´ for all my beloved friends beeing always on my side and helping me with myself.
I dont know what I should do without you

Theres nothing,just NOTHING im really good at.

Sure,I´m interested in a lot of things and often try out new things,try to improve myself as much as possible-
but really good?
Theres nothing.
And that kinda depresses me...
I feel...
Kinda...
Ah,just forget it,I guess its just some sort of shabbyness...
Hope this feeling of beeing worthless will disappear sometimes...